Ma kaha bata suru garam mero katha.khe xina jasto lagx sochda but vannlai derai kura cha yo maan ma.derai ko confession read gare..yo haler yeha k pauxaun hola vanni jasto lagthiyo .derai ko confession pader hase pni roya pni testai maela pni aj yo soche ki kura share garyo vane haluka hunx .asbata 1 jana lai matra haina hajarau lai ekaesath share garna sakinx tesila lekdai chu.sayad kunai juni ma paap gareko thiyo hola tesila yo juni ma vogdai xu.mero family ma 4jana hunhunx.aela mero family ghar khe xina.baba birami hunhunx mero mom lai bihe garnu vanda aginae nai bata mental problem thiyo raix .ani bihe pxi balla mom lai thavo ..ma janme .mero bahini janmin.dukh sukh chaldai gayo but dukh badi vayo baba bujda sarai ramro nabujda derai dukh.mom le pni dukh sahana nasaker sarai vayo nata ghar tira ko support nata maeti tira ko support ..mom ko daju vai pni didi vinaju ramro vako vaya didi vinaju vanja vanji vaner authe hola navaya kina authe r.mom bidesh janu vo hamilae padauna ko lagi ..baba derai jasto birami vaeraknu hunthiyo .hami hajurba hajurama sanga bastheu.mom pni derai basna saknu vayana .tauko dukni birami vayara farker aunu vayo ..baba le piteko pitae garni vayara ktm pasal garerw baseko xu vanuhunthiyo.mamaghar auda betna bolaunu hunthiyo r hami janthem.maela kati tal phn garerw bolaya mom lai rudai mom aununa ghar hami thim vaner ..mom le phn katdinu hunthiyo.pxi tulo hudai gaye ani thapaye mom le paila nai arko bihe garisaknu vako raix..bahini pni tulo hudai gae .mom divorce garna aunu vayo baba sanga r bahini lai liyara janu vo..malae yahe choddinu vayo chora ho khe hudaina vaner .ma school ma thiya.pxi thapaye ..cycle liyara kudaudai gaye mom lai vetna road ma ta ra kahe vetina.din vitdai gayo pida maan mai gumsiyara basyo.hajurama sanga basthe din vari kelthe raati vayasi k k sochthe ani runthe sound nanikali .vagman lai sadhai autai ques sodthe ki galti mero k thiyo? Maela baba ama kina ramro paena vaner.galti mero yo thiyo haina maela janma liye.sirani pura vichthiyo r farkayer suthe .ashu pni kaela sidiyana ruda ruda sadhai nidauthe.vanne garthe pagal ko chora .asko chora usko chora..tikae cha dukh cha sukh aula vanni soche r saher base.but kaela ayana..vanne garxn jasko vagya vagman le lekeko hunxn uslai matra vagman le sath dinxn jasko vagya afile lekeko hunx teslai mahasus garauna dukh dinxn re vagman le sayad maela pni afno vagya afi lekheko thiya hola.derai chanana thiyo derai asa haru thiyo ta ra khe vayana jasta ko testai rahayo ..maan mai marerw gayo..jado ma k garthe thahacha jn tshirt r kattu matra layer basthe kinaki astho lagthiyo ki katae bata mero mummy aunu hunx r chora jado cha kapda laga vannu hunx ki vaner ta ra teo din kaela ayana .maan ma derai ques thiya.nakasilae sodna paye nakasilai vanna paye.auta kura thacha jasle jati sukai vannus baba ama navako chorachori lai kasile maya gardaina..hajurba hajurama le derai maya garnuhunthiyo.manxe tesai bigrerw hidxn ma asto huda pni kaela bigrina.jaba 8 class ma puge taba samma teeth brush vanni thathiyana pxi sabae hasna thale ani garna thale..haahaa atti sojo thiya k ma sano ma r aela pni chu .ghar ko chaat vannle (ahatti) teha cond* vetauda ballon vaner fulayar kelaune mai thiya..ani hajurba hasnu vakothiyo musuka .teo din kina hasnu vayo hola vaner sochekothiya aj ans paye..eklai kelthe ..eklai basthe .kelna jada pni kasiko support hunthiyana..kaela kaso rudai rudai authe..ki baba matra tik ..ki mom matra hunhunthiyo malae support garni vane malae kasto hunthiyo hola socheko pni xina..nakaela jiddi garna paeyo na kaela baba ko maya mom ko maya kasto huncha vaner dekna, mahasus garna paena.sano ko childhood astari bityo ki khe xina baba ama ko maya ko samjana ..aru ko dekda pni kasto payro lagthiyo.10 class ma puge hostel base .tetikae bityo.hajurama vetna aunuhunthiyo.aru koe authenan.afant le auta gare vane 10 ota kura sunauxn .afule jati garepni khe dekinna jaba ki afu sanga khe hudaina.sabaile vanthe ramro sanga padh ..maela hunx vanthe but padna ko lagi chaeni kura haru layara kasile dinthenan .sochni garthe yeha vanni manxe derai hunxn ta r haath samatayara sikaune manxe koe hunna kina hola vaner sochthe.ani aru hamro baba ko dajubhai sab tikxn family cha..maela sochthe malae ni kasile pale hunthiyoni .kasile help gardaina kina hola afno chora r ma ma chutauxn.yedi ma pni teo vai dai vayara janmeko hunthiya vane ma pni chora hunthe ni..teo sochthe but bistarai tulo hudai gaye ani balla buje yedi mero mom hunuhunthiyo vane pni sayad tahe nae garnu hunthiyo hola yo tau ma ..yo nature nai astai ho vane r koe sanga khe risibi rakina.ani 11 ma luge afant ko ma baser pade..nokar vanda kamthiyana life.clz ko first thiya 11 ma 75 and 12 ma 73 ayo (management).sadhai sabae sutesi chaat ko tanki paxadi gayara runthe asto jindagi thiyo derai dukh thiyo kasile nadekus kasile nasunnus vaner.11 matra baser teha pade ..12 ma room liyara baser pade.uncle r hajurama le paisa dinuhunthiyo lukai lukai ani pade..bacleor paddha afi kam garerw padh vannu vo.kam gardai padeko ..nepal ko kam testai ho..kam ma dhyan diyo .padhai bigriyo ..exam ayo xutti xina.bihana clz .dress sangai jau kam ma belka 7 baje kam bata room ma au ani khana banau khau ..k padni .voli feri tahe cha.ekdin exam ayo xutti mageko kam ma dinna kam xod vanyo .ani kam pni xode ,study pni..mero bagya ma lekeko xina padna vane ano chodidiya .derai le yo confession padni le padnu parthiyo ni chodna hunthenan vanxn vanihaleni vanni derai hunxn haat samater sikaune koe hudaina kattai bata support navayasi sarai garo hudeo rahex..afno afno dukh sabae lai tulo lagx .maela mero life bata yo buje ki dukh sabae ko autai ho .jasto vayapni auta ramro baba ama vannus sabae jana r ma pni banxu vanni sike.kasilai sikayan maya k ho .aru ko hererw afi le janeko maya cha.yo sabda ma leker sirib yo sabda haru sidiyala ta ra dukh jati ko teti nai cha r derai cha ..bachna sarai garo hudo raix.ani auta kura kaela bigrerw hidina .ekdin sarai vo r asto jindagi junu vanda marxu vane .jasle sucide garx ni teslai namard himat haraua vanxn haina sucide garna sab vanda tulo himat hunuparx bujnu vo .sabae bacheko xn ni yeha jatini sangaras garerw e sabae darauxn marna ko lagi tesila bachirako xn.ani kasari marni vaner soche poision kiner lauxu tahe khanxu ani marxu vane ani paisa pni thiyana sathi thiyo auta kam gartheo tahe sanga magxu rs50 vaner socher r chaat ma rudai thiya ta la jare akha ma Ashu tilmil thiyo pusdai jhare .ani oralo jasto thiyo bato tala hereko paisa nai paisa dekxu kattai 10 kattai 5 kattai 50 astai .ani ramro sanga here akha micher sabae manxe haru raix kasile chatpat bechirako ..kasile gan todirako.koe fancy ma kapda bechdai gako.ani aso soche e sabae lai chae bachna maan lako cha hola r? Afulai here educated xu .healthy xu.haitt hansom jn sarai xu .ani kina marnu vaner farkiya afulai motivate garerw.ekdin tik hola vaner.ghar xina jagga cha.ielts garxu vane padni paisa mage 6 hajar r pade exam dini paisa navayara chode.sabae le vanthe naam nikala half money ma halxu ..ho ma bujxu tahe ielts padni paisa ani exam dini pni paisa xina kasari vanam teo t dinan ni pailae naam nanikaldai .aba ama ko support xina kaha bata liyara am.visa aunu vanda agadi nai lagx 2 lakh jati vanthe tahe paisa vayana..baba ama huda huda pni jiudai tuhuro vaya .katti jado mahina gayo kaati gharmi katti jhari.vanthe koe koe le tuhuro ko ekdin palo aux .authiyo hola pakhai pni paila ko jasto sansar hunthiyo vane ..aela xina testo khe pni.yeha relation ko valu chaina ..paisa ko cha.ani last ma qatar auna puge kahe khe garna sakina .nepal ni katti basnu.derai kosis gare khe garna nasaker yeha aepuge qatar ma.
Thax malae sabae ko dukh afilai tulo lagx yo confession leknu ko karan asta manxe ni xn jun ajhai mareko xina sangaras gardai xn vanni sabaele bujun.
I am not in australia .i am not in america.i am not celebrity .i am not king.ma jasta hajarau xn jo bacheko xn ta ra vitra bata mareko xn.ma mero jasto padhai cha ta ra badhetha vayara xodna pareko cha vannus ma paisa pataedinxu ..jati sakxu teti .jatti lai sakxu teti lai 4 hajar 5 hajar 15 hajar samma.mero pni derai xina salary tahe 30 hajar ho..malae paisa sangaler khe garnu xina sirib kasile malae derai asaribadh deus ki arko juni ma mero baba ama tik hun r ramro pau .uhaharu ko maya tanna pau.cmnt garnus .ma msg garxu .ani hajurko pida sunxu ani help garxu but kasile pni jokes nagarnus r hawa tal ma navannus .hajur le garda kasiko jiban ujyalo hunx vane kelbad nagarnu hos. Marerw janu nai cha paisa sagaler k kam baru aelo jo bachirako xn ta ra marna lako xn uhaharu lai help garnu tik .rich is not that one who have alot of money ,rich is that one who help a needy people.
Ani arko kura koe cha vane ielts garna sakni kt ma padni paisa ni pataedinxu exam dini pni r bihe garerw sangai jani paisa ma halxu sabae .sano jagga tahe becher jaula.ho ma janna chahanxu australia r paisa derai kamauna chahanxu mero lagi haina ma jasta lakhau ko lagi .aj 5 hajar sayok garna sakxu vane teha gayara 50 hajar garna sakxu..mero auta soch cha help foundation kolni r sayok garni.koe uhanai hunhunx vane pni bihe garna tyar xu.(age 23 cast bahun .religion hindu.nepali)mero lagi haina uha ko lagi.koe t cha holani maela jastai sochne yo maan lai bujne ..
Kaela tulo humla r paisa kamala r sayok garamla vanni sochthiye ab pura huncha jasto cha.sabaele mind change garnus r auta ramro manxe bannus.sakinx help garnus nasake sath dinnus .
Khe naramro lageko vaya maaf gardinus.